Since I finished the rewrite of my memoir on a time of illness and recovery and delivered the manuscript into the hands of, hopefully, gentle critics for the first read, I've been released back into my right brain, visual persona. Last week I attended the first session of an art journal workshop with Heather Allen Hietala at Bookworks. It's supposed to help us break through creative blocks and unleash our creativity. We'll see how that goes.
My problem is not so much that my creativity is blocked, but more that I'm blocked about putting it out in public. The walls of our home are full of my work (along with valued works by others I consider "real" artists). My closets and drawers are rife with wearable art. And I've gifted and donated handcrafted items and artwork to friends, loved ones, and charities. I'm just not good at making my output readily accessible to the marketplace. I think I have a handle on some of the reasons, but not a great grasp of how to break out and get into the game.
I'm a Pisces - I remember at my little girl birthday parties, I was both happy to be recognized by the notes of "Happy Birthday to You....", and embarrassed to be the (unworthy?) center of attention. Oh my - so young to be so serious, but that was me as far back as I can remember.
It's the same thing now, I guess. I yearn for my unique talents to be noticed, I crave recognition and respect, but in my heart of hearts I harbor the "I'm just not good enough" enemy. So, to make good on an intention to break out and be my own best friend. Here is a brief selection of the playful product of my Winter hibernation period, so far. Just like a Pisces - going in all directions at once.
|Bear Family - Water Color Sketch|
|Catch the Mood Collage|
|Joyous Dancers Collage|
|Red '40s Cloche Crochet|
|"Scrap Bag" - purse made from remnants|